B+C+B+C+B+C: Missing Maui

Saturday, October 19, 2013

Missing Maui

My Mom texted me this picture today. And I started crying. Bawling like a baby.

It's amazing how one little picture can make me SO happy and SO sad at the same time. So happy they're having this awesome adventure. So sad I'm not there with them. Regardless of how completely valid my reason for not attending the big Mother-Daughter-Maui-Trip is (wouldn't wanna go into labor on the beach... or would I?), it's just sad to miss this. My reaction to the photo really surprised me. And Brian. He didn't know how to handle me, cuz I don't do this. I'm not a crier. And I haven't hardly said a word about missing this trip for the past 9 months that I've known it was happening and known I would miss it. It honestly hasn't been that big of a deal to me. While a Maui trip with my mom and sister and sisters-in-law and their moms sounds absolutely amazing... the logistics would be crazy. Expensive of course, but that wouldn't have been too big of a deal. It would be the care of my 3 keiki. Brian's job isn't that flexible - he could only miss a day or two, or reduce hours a little and be way behind on his work. I'd have to find someone to take care of them. And that means either paying a lot of money and trusting someone fulltime, or dividing their time between kind friends, and owning those friends big time. All involve me missing my babies a LOT, and Brian needing to be 2 places at once. And I can't even imagine the night time scenes... Brian trying to get them all to bed, when so often they ONLY want ME at bedtime. I'm popular like that around here. It would break my heart if they were super sad and missing me while I was off playing on a tropical island. So really, part of me was glad that I had a perfect excuse to just skip the trip. And part of me - the part that had a meltdown at seeing this picture - is totally bummed. Especially that the trip included a 5K fun run that I helped find and plan for over a year ago. Sigh. No aloha for me. Someday though! For sure! Because when Brianna saw me so sad, and I explained why, she said, "it's ok. I'm going to go to college in Hawaii just like you did and YOU will come WITH me just like Nonny came with YOU!"
Love that girl!

1 comment:

Lemonpeel said...: Hahaha! I love this post so much because of how completely crazy preggo emotions are, and they hit completely without warning. Oh the weeping. I love Brianna, atta girl. She totally knows what to say. :); October 20, 2013 at 9:06 PM

Quotes I want to remember

"The Lord knows our bearing capacity, both as to coping and to comprehending, and He will not give us more to bear than we can manage at the moment, though to us it may seem otherwise. Just as no temptations will come to us from which we cannot escape or which we cannot bear, we will not be given more trials than we can sustain."
- Neal A. Maxwell

"It is a fundamental truth that the responsibilities of motherhood cannot be successfully delegated. No, not to day-care centers, not to schools, not to nurseries, not to babysitters. We become enamored with men's theories such as the idea of preschool training outside the home for young children. Not only does this put added pressure on the budget, but it places young children in an environment away from mother's influence."
-Ezra Taft Benson

“Perhaps there has never been a time when we had greater need to pray and to teach our family members to pray. Prayer is a defense against temptation. It is through earnest and heartfelt prayer that we can receive the needed blessings and the support required to make our way in this sometimes difficult and challenging journey we call mortality.”
-Thomas S. Monson

“Live the gospel as conspicuously as you can. Keep the covenants your children know you have made. And bear your testimony! Don’t just assume your children will somehow get the drift of your beliefs on their own.
-Jeffrey R. Holland

"We hold in our arms the rising generation. They come to this earth with important responsibilities and great spiritual capacities. We cannot be casual in how we prepare them. Our challenge as parents and teachers is not to create a spiritual core in their souls but rather to fan the flame of their spiritual core already aglow with the fire of their premortal faith."
-Neil L. Andersen

"Certainly there are times when getting the family together to read the scriptures does not stack up as a spiritual experience worthy of a journal entry. But we must not be deterred. There are special times when the spirit of a son or daughter is just right and the power of these great scriptures goes down into their heart like fire. As we honor our Heavenly Father in our homes, He will honor our efforts."
-Neil L. Andersen

President Hinckley admonished both men and women to be nurturers. He said, ‘How much more beautiful would be the society in which we live if every father . . . and . . . mother regarded [their] children . . . as gifts from the God of heaven . . . and brought them up with true affection in the wisdom and admonition of the Lord.’ ”
-Susan W. Tanner

"Children are like trees. When they are young, their lives can be shaped and directed, usually with ever so little effort. Said the writer of Proverbs, 'Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it' (22:6). That training finds its roots in the home. There will be little of help from other sources. Do not depend on government to help in this darkening situation. Barbara Bush, wife of former U.S. president George Bush, spoke wisely: 'Your success as a family, our success as society, depends not on what happens at the White House, but on what happens inside your house.' "
-Gordon B. Hinckley

“I give counsel to husbands and wives. Pray for the love which allows you to see the good in your companion. Pray for the love that makes weaknesses and mistakes seem small. Pray for the love to make your companion’s joy your own. Pray for the love to want to lessen the load and soften the sorrows of your companion.”
-Henry B. Eyring

“Reverent behavior is not a natural tendency for most children. It is a quality that is taught by parents and leaders through example and training. But remember, if reverence is rooted in love, so is the teaching of it. Harshness in our training begets resentment, not reverence.”
-Margaret S. Lifferth

"There is no one perfect way to be a good mother. Each situation is unique. Each mother has different challenges, different skills and abilities, and certainly different children. What matters is that a mother loves her children deeply and, in keeping with the devotion she has for God and her husband, prioritizes them above all else."
- M. Russell Ballard

“As parents, we should remember that our lives may be the book from the family library which the children most treasure. Are our examples worthy of emulation? Do we live in such a way that a son or a daughter may say, ‘I want to follow my dad,’ or ‘I want to be like my mother’?”
-Thomas S. Monson

“Security for our families comes from learning self-control, avoiding the excesses of this world, and being temperate in all things.”
-Kent D. Watson

Saturday, October 19, 2013

Missing Maui

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